Happiness means

Happiness is come from your mind first is right.
For the past few months, i am so stressfull, having a lot of thought and tired. 

I just remember now, that someone ever says to me "You are so strong or may be too strong. Work until midnight, handling a lot of client, travel a lot alone and do a lot of overtime, but still survive. When i am health, i didn't care about my body and mind, i only think that i can handle as much as i can. Sleep less and sometimes insomnia is the usual things for me, it didn't bother me too much. But then Allah reminds me that i don't need to be too strong, i need to be relax sometimes and enjoy my life.

I even continuing my study just after few week after my final exam, i am not graduated yet but i am too greedy to achieve my goal. I want to finish my master on 25th years old and i am working hard enough to achive that and also my work.
I am very much tired but i still doing my best for work and go to collage almost everyday at night. My client place is not quite strategic, it's too much stressing due to traffic along the way from that place and my university. Seriously even it's heavy rain i still want to go and i come without drink anything and eat anything, so the result is i become sick.
My body drop till i am not able to walk, having a high fever on several days. I didn't remember much how i spend my life those day.
After 10 days on bed, i am able to speak with my parents and eat many kinds of food except the spicy. Sometimes i still think about my work and even school, it's really stressfull and i am so scared that i am not able to finish my master degree on time. Because of that, i ended to sick for almost 1 month.

Because of that situation, i thought really hard about my life, about my achievement and about key of happiness. I am asking to my self, what is the happiness means for me?
Then i know that my happiness is makes my parents happy, but see when i am working to hard and being sick, they didn't happy. But when i am healthy and can work well, they are extremily happy again.  So, from now i will just work not too hard, it's just as much as i can. Not forcing myself to hard for doing something when i am not in a good condition. Enjoying my life by treating my self right and socialize with people more..

With this conditions, i hope i can finish my master on time on my 25th year.
Only one month left for the last final exam, and then only thesis left, i hope i can finish it with the good result.

Fighting~~

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